in my life

by Lolly

There are places I’ll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more
In my life– I love you more

Long time ago, my partner once told me he was thinking about this particular song, that somehow was connected to me. He told me to quickly listen to the song and to also read the lyric carefuly. “It’s for you”, he said.

I wasn’t very into the song at first. It was good, yes. It was very sweet, damn yep. But that’s it. We were in the first couple of months of our relationship, so I didn’t really think he really really meant it when he told me the sweet song was for me. Nor did I think he really felt what was said in the song. I thought of it just as a nice, small romantic gesture to his new girlfriend, and…that was really okay for me. I always love it when he tells me to listen to a particular song, only to find out in the end that the song is for me, or that the song describes his feelings to me, or that the song reminds him of me. I knew he didn’t really mean them, but it was okay. It felt nice, but that was it 

Fast forward to last week when we went to a cinema to watch this documentary movie about The Beatles. I wasn’t into the band, but it was nice to get to know his favorite band a bit better, so we sat there and watched the movie together for about 2 hours. I surprisingly enjoyed the movie a lot. My boyfriend? He was like a kid on his way to theme park, excited as heck for the entire film.

The movie contained lots and lots of The Beatles’ songs (big surprise..!) and i got to admit, almost all of them was good. I even found myself humming a couple of parts from some songs while i was taking a pee (LOL)

Anyway, being the curious person I was, i then asked him what his favorite song from the Beatles was. To my surprise, “It’s In My Life”, he said.

All of a sudden i thought of the particular moment long ago when he told me the song was for me. Smiled, i realized that somehow now, I managed to believe that that the song was about me.

If you read the lyric, you may find that the song is not necessarily about someone who is reminiscing his past. It’s more about expressing one’s love for someone, by comparing them to the past. Rather than simply saying “i love you”, The Beatles decide to compare their newfound love to everything they have known to love and cherish their entire lives. It’s like saying,”compared to even the most cherished of all of my life’s memories, I still love you more“.

And compared to before, I finally managed to believe that maybe, I was worth that amount of love from someone as good as him.